Overwhelmed

Overwhelmed. That is how I've been feeling for the last few weeks.

I am overwhelmed at school. I feel like I am flying by the seat of my pants ALL THE TIME. I cannot get my room organized (which I still blame on the chaos that was starting at a different school while our classrooms were being remodeled and moving back to our school while I was on partial bed rest). My centers have not been working lately. My students are being lazy--I know that's a harsh term for kindergartners, but it's true. They are not getting their work done. I am overwhelmed that report cards are coming up and I only have 4 students assessed. FOUR! I am overwhelmed by all the things I am not used to in my new district and new school.

I am overwhelmed with my house right now. The garage is full of junk (how did we accumulate that much?) that stresses me out just looking at it. I try not to look. I am overwhelmed by how fast Elinor can totally mess up the living room. I am embarrassed to open the windows because I don't want anyone seeing the mess. I know, pathetic. I am overwhelmed with the amount of dirty dishes in the sink right now and have no motivation to do them.

I am overwhelmed with the fact that I have started throwing up everyday again. Ug. It was a good 3 or 4 week run! But hey, I've only had 1 migraine in the last month. Wahoo!

I am overwhelmed that in about 100 days I will have 2 children under the age of 17 months. Not sure how that's going to work. I am also stressed out that this boy will be dressed in pink!

I am overwhelmed by the very nice post Anne wrote about moi. Read about it here. (Next week you can bid on some of my bows to benefit Stephanie and Christian Nielson on Anne's blog). Thanks, Anne! It made my day!

I am overwhelmed that I am hosting my first Thanksgiving in 4 weeks from today. Excited, but overwhelmed.

I am overwhelmed that tomorrow is Halloween and I still don't know what I'm going to be. Dorothy? Sorry, my pregnant belly doesn't fit into that costume right now. Witch? No luck--did you know that there are virtually no witch hats left in Utah? Sarah Palin's daughter? Ha! I don't want to be too scandalous. Brad and I did have fun thinking of all the funny things I could be--a pregnant cheerleader, Jamie Lynn Spears, Sarah Palin's daughter, etc. I do teach kindergarten, though, and thought the parents would not appreciate it. Anyone know where I can buy a maternity costume? Didn't think so.

I am overwhelmed that my maternity clothes are already not covering my big belly. Seriously. I still have a little more than 3 months to go. Like the wonderful Dr. Dewey reminded me, "You're obviously going to be big." What am I supposed to do? If I get the shirts any bigger, they will literally fall off up top and probably still not cover the belly. Ah well. A lot of pulling the shirt, I guess.

I am overwhelmed by the fact that Elinor just screamed for an hour (I would love to take a nap but not Elinor--at least not today).

I am overwhelmed that we have to have our apartment totally cleaned by tomorrow. Moving is not fun!

Brad and I desperately need a night out. We've only had 1 night out alone together since Elinor was born. Once. We so definitely need it, especially after this month of craziness.

As I was driving home today, I saw a bumper sticker that said, "Life is good." Normally I hate bumper stickers, but I had to smile at this one. Because no matter how overwhelmed I am feeling, life is good. I have the cutest little girl (although very feisty) and a little bundle of joy on the way that already has quite the personality. (Seriously, if I lay in a way he doesn't like, he'll kick me like crazy until I move--and hard!) And I am happy!